Bittersweet Memories

It is halfway through October already. How did that happen? School has been incredibly busy and I'm still wondering how I ever juggled gymnastics into it. Today was a hard day in some ways. After horseback riding, I found my heart aching for Romania. I started missing a bunch of the kids and just wanting to reach out to them physically. Sometimes it's so hard to not necessarily forget them but to not think about them. Not one day goes by where I don't think about them, but when I do it's like a small flash of pain because I miss them. I don't know if you have every experienced this, you have probably experienced it more with a loved one, like a sibling, husband, boyfriend etc. These kids will always have my heart. I love them as my family. It's amazing what love does to you. On October 24th there is a mission worship night where all the people who went on a mission trip to come to that and there are people speaking from each team who went on a mission trip. I am talking about Romania. As I prepare for it, I get more nervous but I'm finding it hard to express everything that happened there because some things are just so amazing that you can't put it into words. It's funny, I will be getting sucked up into my life then someone says something that reminds me of Romania. Lately I have been finding myself seeimg people that look like one of the kids and I do a double take. My biggest fear when I came home was that I would forget some of the kids' names or forget them completely. Writing and thinking right now, I know I will never ever forget them. God has been teaching me lately to completely trust Him and be bold. Sometimes I forget that He actually does have a plan. In being bold, I've learned to be more outgoing about my faith and just in general. I've realised that it really doesn't matter what people think. I've begun to stop caring and I'm completely content with it. I've developed the attitude of 'who cares' but in a good way. Oh, my new favorite song is The House That Built Me by Miranda Lambert, love it. I hope all of you have a great weekend. Love you all.